On medication

 Hello,

I finally traveled and I'm in the other city facing the reality of life. We broke up. Actually I ended the relationship because his aunt and cousin got in saying that I had done drama that day (which is not true, that day all I did was leave because my ex wanted to drive drunk), so we ended fighting and him being rude to me like always.

Then I got tired... and I replied ugly too, we ended up blocking each other and ending the relationship (later we unblocked each other) but we haven't spoken to each other since then. I spoke with the lady of the house and told her that the other month I was no longer going to continue living there. So now I must, get a job, get a room and move, all before December 5th.

Regarding my ex, I had a few days where I cried at night (not too much) but I told myself that I couldn't go on there anymore, if that person wasn't going to respect me and keep making dangerous decisions for me, him or his family. I saw that he spent the whole weekend going out and of course he was drinking, my mom told me that he was watching her instagram.

The arrival at the house was strange, I felt very nervous but not because of seeing him because I knew that I was going to have a very difficult week. I think he was waiting for me to beg him or he should keep waiting for me to humiliate myself like I always did, but this time is different because I really have given everything for this relationship and that person is not capable of accepting his mistakes and he doesn’t want to get better, he just wants to be with someone who doesn't say anything to him and that person is not me.

At this moment each one is in his own room, it is quite uncomfortable but tolerable, obviously there is a very small part of me that would like him to take responsibility for his actions and apologize to me and tell me to work on the relationship, but the reality is that's not going to happen. Precisely today when I was leaving the building I met his aunt and cousin, it was so uncomfortable because I always greeted them with great joy but after what they did to me I no longer want to know anything about them, I greeted them out of pure politeness.

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This is the first time that I am going to take on the grief of a relationship since I have been on medication, as I would like to be able to talk to my psychologist.

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